I've been thinking about these lines:
And the moon, whether prudish or complaisant,
Has fled to her bower, well knowing I want
No light in the dusk, no torch in the gloom,
But my Isabel's eyes and her lips pulp'd with bloom.
Yes, it's Keats again. I'm really trying to move on, but these lines have been swirling around in my head. It's fitting, as they are from a song that he wrote. I like that first line, 'the moon, whether prudish or complaisant,'. I can't believe in a prudish moon, and I can't believe that Keats believed in a prudish moon either. I'd like to believe in a complaisant moon, a courteous, obliging moon hiding herself away, leaving a dark, dark sky to ensure the safety of the couple. But maybe the moon, most of the time anyway, is simply neutral. There. She doesn't really need to do anything other than show up.
I've been asking myself, why do I care so much whether Porphyro and Madeline make it out of the house, whether Catherine and Heathcliff are allowed to be together at long last, whether the narrator of this poem is able to kiss his Isabel in accommodating darkness. Shouldn't I be beyond this kind of thinking by now?
I thought that I'd outgrow this kind of thing
Tell me, aren't we supposed to mature or something?
I haven't found that yet
Is this as grown-up as we ever get?
That's Everything But The Girl. The truth is, I've spent most of my life trying to stifle my romantic leanings. They seem out of place. But they haven't gone away, and in fact seem to get stronger as the years go by. Even though I should know better. Or should I?
All the best poets know it's complicated.
I see a sky of stars and realise that I'm divided
I hear a sad guitar and I decide I'm undecided
That's Roddy Frame. He's romantic but he's a realist too. That's why I love him. He can write a sad song- a song that is partially about things gone so wrong that the only way to right them would be to go back in time and and do it all over- that contains the stunning line:
God made all the stars and sea for you and me
And then it seems like we are right back where we started. Anyway, that's what I've been thinking about.
Listen to Marble Arch (a demo version) by Roddy Frame here. Buy here (isn't he still so gorgeous?), here or on iTunes.
Listen to The Heart Remains A Child by Everything But The Girl here (until Monday only). Buy here or on iTunes.
Porphyro and Madeline are the couple in The Eve of St. Agnes. Highly recommended.
And I highly recommend the whole of the Keats song I quoted. Read it in a whisper- urgently (you don't really have a choice, the words conspire to hurry you along)- by candlelight.